you're tacky, but i like it

no matter what you decide to do, do it with passion and the end result wont be disappointing

oops

i got arrested for the first time last week. it was a horrible (yet oddly nice) experience. i do not recommend picking up the closest object to you and hitting someone with it in a fight because you never know if it can be classified as a dangerous weapon…you could get arrested. sad face, i have a record now. boo

i want my future child to look like this. i might have to stop dating a black man….

i want my future child to look like this. i might have to stop dating a black man….

challenges

http://heckyeahtumblrchallenges.tumblr.com/post/4680445107/a-challenge

i dont care if anyone reads what i post, i do it more for myself

1. Im an 18 year old girl whose lost her path. I make rash decisions based on whats going to make me happy now, i dont think much about the future. I love to listen to people and relate stories to my own life. I tend to forget to take action about the things in my life that need to get done, im unreliable and scatterbrained. I failed out of college after one year because I can’t buckle down, i feel like i want something different out of my life. I don’t want to be another ‘teen mom’ but im ready to start my life. I have a boyfriend whom i love very much but gets under my skin, hes more like me than he knows. i want to finally start living!

disarray

everything always changes, it’s inevitable, i understand that. lately the changes that happen to me destroy me, they make me doubt my ability to take care of myself and the people i care about. they make me hate the people that i should care the most about. they make me want to push the limits and they successfully make me miserable day after day. if a quarter of the changes coming at me helped me, i could keep my head up, i could tread the water until the tide comes in. unfortunately i keep getting pulled under, i feel like im falling and i dont want to pick myself up. no, im not depressed, i dont want to kill myself or anything like that, the changes are all happening so fast i dont know how to react. i havent learned how to make decisions for myself. thats what it boils down to, i cant predict the future, so i dont know what i should commit to, making myself happy now or what could make me happy in the future. theres so much to think about.